Giallo Ornamental...that's a color name of a piece of granite that I am looking at for the lakehouse. It isnt my first choice as I thought I had to have a white marble called Calacatta Danby...oh my goodness it is gorgeous! Beautiful, clean white marble with breathtaking beige and chocolate marbling. I wanted it so badly that I havent been able to think of anything else. I based my entire design for the kitchen around it. I am so in love with that marble. It is near perfection in the world of marble. In fact, open any design magazine displaying a "to die for kitchen" and there it will be...stunningly beautiful.

But....then, we have to be realistic, dont we? And Calacatta Danby turns out to be extremely pricey and not really a good choice on the durability side when it comes to lakehouse living...dang it!!!!! I want it and it just doesnt look like I will get it. And if I am really honest with myself and listen to the practical designer inside my head, she is telling me I would be sorry later because marble would not hold up to the abuse my family and friends and I would heave on it. The simple tasks of cooking and mixing drinks would destroy the finish. A few drops of lemon or lime juice would take the finish off and olive oil or wine would leave permanent rings. So, why am I so upset....probably has nothing to do with the marble.

Sometimes, we set our minds on something and our knuckles turn white from holding on so tight. It turns our world upside down, makes us irritable with the ones we love and angry with ourselves when it appears it wont work out. (Like I said, it has nothing to do with marble. lol.) I am so frustrated right now with so many things! Nothing seems to be coming easy, everything is hard. The marble is just the straw that might break the camel's back.

I want it dang it! I know it's impractical and bloody expensive, but, dang it, can I not just have one thing that I want right now? Just one? That's my attitude today, nothing is the way I want it and everything is too hard and I have convinced myself that the marble will make everything better. That is, until a year from now when I hate it because there are rings all over the place and rough spots from the lemon juice. Then I will want to blame someone else for allowing me to have it(Sorry, Honey).

Uugghh, I dont want to be practical or conservative. I am always like that! Ask my family and friends, they will tell you...Kim is by the book! No waves, no wide turns....so predictable, so boring. I just wanted something different this time, something unreachable, something outside the box. NOT. I have chosen Giallo Ornamental....Beige, middle of the road in price. Typical and ordinary. I am so disappointed. But, what the hell, it's a countertop right?...or is it?